Lymphomania

Luke has come up with his own version of the English language. He is going to teach us a new language instead of conforming to the same language we all fluently speak. His new sentence he says is, “Uh, by da way.” Translations: The Insy Weensy Spider or just spider also works for this. Everyday we are starting to hear words out of his babbling we are so excited and then soon discover the word that we all know in English that is is saying really means some totally different. I think this fits his personality to a T. Luke is obsessed with putting his finger in his nose.  I thought I was a clever Mom and said, Luke don’t put your fingers in your nose or a spider will bite your finger.”  Luke now he is searching for a, “by da way,” up his nose. He runs around saying, “by da way, by da way,” while shoving his finger so high in his nose that he makes it bleed. That was a very BAD Mommy move. Then this evening at a wonderful family dinner where 2 of the 3 children had already had time outs.  Adam asks Russ, “where does Ham comes from.” Russ so eloquently says at our dinner table, “A pigs butt.” Guess what new words little Luke starts chanting? Yes, you got it, “Pigs Butt, Pigs Butt.” I don’t let the children say butt I would rather they say bottom or bum. Now here at my wonderful family dinner all I can hear is the chiming of Pigs Butt. (This is when being the only girl in the family is very apparent.)  My sweet dear husband has found a new way to completely embarrass his wife. Because you know tomorrow out in public my little Luke will show off his new words. Oh you just got to love this!!!

My sweet little Adam is turning 5 years old. I can’t believe that our little guy is so big! 5 seems so old to me!

We had a leprechaun visit our house after Tyler spent hours setting the perfect trap for him. He tested and re-tested his trap dozens of time to make sure there would be no injury to the Leprechaun. The Leprechaun made a mess of the house and turned the milk a greenish blue and left a note and a picture for the boys. They were so thrilled and excited – they have shown everyone! Tyler had his three wishes already planned out for when he caught the Leprechaun.

Tyler’s Wishes

1. To be Harry Potter

2. To have Hogwarts

3. Diagon Alley

Tyler shared his wishes with Adam as they were going to sleep. Adam starts crying hysterically. He was a mess when he came into the room. He couldn’t even get the words out to explain to Russ what he was crying about. Finally Russ got him to calm down enough to hear the problem. He said that Tyler was going to wish to be Harry Potter. If that happened, then Tyler wouldn’t be in our family anymore. Then he started crying more. Russ reassured Adam that Tyler would stay in our family even if he was Harry Potter. Then Adam went back to bed where Tyler said he would wish Adam could be Ron so they could be together and Leia the dog could be Hermione. It was the sweetest thing!!!

Adam had his Doggie party today. He was thrilled to pieces and was sure this was the best party ever!! He loves it when Mommy throws parties. He now has 18 doggies which he loves. The names crack me up they are always:

Doggie, Brownie, Sleepy, Fuzzy, Army anything that describes what the dog looks like. It is very funny. This goes along with Adam’s thought process. When he gets to choose a name for things it is descriptive . For example, at school one day he was tasked with picking an Indian name. His teachers suggest names like walking turtle, black bear, etc. Adam picked “Indian Adam.” If you have a rubber duck, it’s name would be Duckie. Thinking about Adam’s names cracks me up. He is so literal. His real b-day is the 25th we did it early b/c of Easter and such. So he is calling his party a fake b-day party. When he tells you about his party it is, “at my fake b-day” we did such and such. He is adorable and I just cherish him! HAPPY BIRTHDAY

I was waiting for more answers before I posted but I will let you know what I know. The Biopsy came back Negative For Lymphoma. YEAY!!! The MRI shows an a-symmetrical thickening of the wall. So I’m not sure why 2 scans come back and show something and the biopsy shows nothing. Could this mean the things they are seeing in the scans are behind the lining where they can’t see? I’m not really sure. They are going to do a follow up MRI in a few months to see what is happening. I don’t feel like I can say I’m relived b/c I still feel sceptical. Maybe that is just part of the feelings you have after going through cancer. I would feel better if I had a clean scan. I talked to Michelle who is a nurse last night and she said go live up the next 3 months. Stressing won’t change anything it will only be worse on your body. Just live it up until they tell you something more. That is much easier said then done. I don’t know how to turn off the little voice in the back of my head. But I do a very good job keeping so busy that I don’t have time to think about it. At night when I have quiet time is when all the worries come rushing in. But what can I do? I am at the mercy of time and I know some things just take patience. Patience needs to be my new best friend. Patience is the word that has caused so much PAIN in my life. Maybe if I just embrace this concept with a loving heart then I will find peace. Patience in situations like this seems like torture me not bring peace. But this is me breathing and hoping to become one with patience. So everyone BREATH………